SO...I came home one afternoon after a very long day. I'd been volunteering and it was a HOT Saturday afternoon. I opened up the door & found this. My two dogs decided to get into the trash. Not anything that anyone wants to come home to but.....shortly after this happened, something changed in me & how I look at things like this.
I can't tell you exactly what or exactly why, other than this... I saw a picture online one day. It was of an older adult. The picture exuded pure joy.
As a full-time working mom, life is full of insanity. My job is higher stress type of job. I'm a corporate litigation paralegal. In the last few years, I did some things to minimize my stress. I took a job that is literally 7 minutes from my house - 3 miles away after commuting to Kentucky for 5 years (for a job I loved). My daily commutes alone were incredibly stressful regardless of all I did to mitigate that (like working 7-3 to try to get ahead of rush hour). My job in KY was stressful but I loved my bosses & my co-workers. It was a very tough decision to leave that job but it made the most sense to take the job closer to home even if it meant that I would take a cut in pay (which a lot of is made up in the time I gained back, less stress & less gas, wear & tear on my car, etc.). I have a teenage daughter & there are just not many ways to reduce the stress that brings but I'm doing my best (and praying a lot). I started running - like, seriously running. In May, I did my first 1/2 marathon. Running has become something I love to do, it brings me peace & joy (which is really weird because I always hating running.)
I spent a few days after seeing that picture of pure joy reflecting on 2017 - on decisions that I made to change my life for the better. I thought about how we're always changing, evolving and that's a good thing. So I'm working very hard right now to change my way of thinking, which is not an easy task but I'm up for the challenge. If I could run a 1/2 marathon at 45, I think I can change my way of thinking to just embrace life - To find PURE JOY in every day.
I have read about starting a gratitude journal & think it sounds lovely, except that I don't think I'd actually journal daily. So instead, I'll try to write down one thing each day in a journal that brought me pure joy. I will be grateful for my life & focus on the positives. I'll do my best to roll with the negatives. I'm going to try to do this via my Instagram account. Follow me @inmylittleworldinoh on Instagram.